I found myself completely attracted to a woman this week. The situation is impossible, start with she's straight and add a bunch more complications. I know though, that under the right circumstances, I would have hit on her. And yet, I feel good about the whole thing.
It's been a long time since I dated anyone. And, in so many ways, I put that part of me away completely. No risk, no hurt right? Maybe, but no risk also means being lonely. I see the fact that I felt that much attraction as a good sign. It means that I am slowly embracing that side of myself again. Only now it is different. I am not trying to force myself to be attracted to men. I let what is totally natural to me be on the surface. I let myself find this woman amazingly beautiful and attractive. I really felt something stir inside.
I feel very unsure of myself when it comes to dating women because I never have. On the flip side I also know it is so much more of a natural thing for me. I'm glad to have seen and met this woman. It has helped me to start to think about a different side of me again.
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