For many, many years now I have hated Christmas. I am bad at figuring out what presents to get for people and it always seemed stressful. I always felt pressure to get the right gifts, with the "right" wrapping, send cards, go to all the parties, decorate, etc... I also always thought that if I didn't feel that "magical" Christmas feeling then somehow I failed. Nearly every year for the last few I have had a major build-up of anxiety and panic attacks leading to Christmas. No wonder I hated it.
This year I let myself be. Gifts were what they were. Wrapping was what it was. I went to a couple of events and not to a couple of events. I didn't worry about not decorating. Ultimately I did what was good for me. It made Christmas way more fun for me. I didn't feel that "magical" feeling and that's ok. I didn't have a panic attack either so progress. In the end I was myself and that made all the difference.
Maybe in the future I will feel like decorating, you never know. Maybe some year I'll feel the feeling again, I can hope. These things are not crucial. No one dies if I don't do it. If other people don't like it, well that is really their problem and not mine to solve.
Good for you Danielle, it should be about what works for you and not the commercialism of xmas, do what feels good for you and who cares what people think or if they judge
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