I didn't realize how much depression was affecting everything in my life. I can see it now as things start to change. The other day I was doing crossword puzzles with my mum. Now this always ends up as a silly and hilarious process (not sure how, but every time). I was laughing and adding to the goofiness and just enjoying myself. Then I noticed myself enjoying myself. When I was in the depths of the depression I could laugh at a joke, but in the next instant I was feeling down and crappy again and not really enjoying the moment. I have cooked myself a couple of very tasty meals this week and again have noticed that they are tasty and that I really like them. Before, eating was more of a chore than a pleasure.
These are just a couple of examples, but it affected everything. I was never happy, I didn't enjoy anything, or if I did it was very very fleeting happiness. I am glad that I am starting to be able to enjoy the little things in life. This is where life is, in the everyday moments and I was miserable through all of them.
Enjoy every damn one of those moments. Hang on to them with both hands. Be happy.
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