How?

Another bit of writing about old stuff that is slowly working its way out.

Today was so hard
How do I make myself get up and do it again tomorrow?
No chance of sleeping much, too much anxiety for that.
What will she do tomorrow?
Will she yell, belittle, intimidate?
Who will she do it in front of this time?
Why me?
What information will she keep from me?
How will I make it through?
How will I meet the unrealistic expectations?
Why won't anyone listen to me or do anything?
Surely they must see what she does.
I feel so alone and helpless.
One of these days I will have to get out of here.
If no one will help, I will have to find a way myself.
But how?
I hope it is soon.  I'm not sure how much longer I can hold on.