When people used to ask me what I was good at I often said taking care of myself. I can see now that what I meant by that was very different that looking after myself. What I meant by that was that I didn't need to me in a relationship, I didn't need a man to take care of me, I was perfectly capable of handling things on my own. I could earn a paycheque, find somewhere to live, cook, clean etc... But what I wasn't doing is paying attention to my other needs, emotional, physical, spiritual, mental.
What I know now is that I have all sorts of needs that must be met for me to be happy with my life. I need to pay attention to that and ask for what I need, speak up, be visible instead of invisible. Being well is about so many things. I know I need to pay attention to what I eat so that I have energy for my day. For me it also means not always trying to do things alone, accepting help and letting other people care for me when I need it. It means managing my life so I am not always at home alone, but also making sure I leave enough time to be alone and have down time. It means spending time with the people I love and care about.
If I am not paying attention to all aspects of who I am then I don't really feel alive, some part of me is in hiding and this leads to depression. Through learning to pay more attention to all of me I am more able to experience life, the good and the bad.
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