Spinning

So much emotion
My mind is spinning
Out of control
Sadness
It seems never ending
Thoughts of having
To put on a happy face
Where to find the energy
Why so sad
How to comprehend
Where did that come from
Why now
Couldn't you wait
One step forward
Two steps back
Or is that the other
Way around
Disjointed
Jumping thoughts
Can't settle down
Spinning
Vortex
Sucked in to it
Why the same again
Is it me
What is it about me
Again really
Wasn't I done
Hadn't I dealt with that
Saw it coming
Couldn't hang on
Why didn't I try
Take care of me
It's the only way
I didn't mean it
How could you take it that way
Can't you see
Relax
Distract
Ignore
Too many thoughts
Around and around and around
Did some things right