Feeling awful

Feeling awful
Struggling so hard
Nothing is making it better
So hard to admit I need help again
Where to start
So overwhelming

Don't want to reach out for help again
Want someone to notice
To ask me how I am and want to hear the answer
To be strong and brave for me
Want to take off the brave face for awhile and be weak

So exhausted
Worn down by it all
Beaten down by it all
Tired
Need to rest

How to start again, again
What to do
Where to turn
Darkness and fog all around
No directions apparent
Someone throw me a line

Head spinning in circles
Going nowhere
Only around and around
And down