I was reading someone else's blog this evening and she was talking about Suicide Prevention Week this week. I wrote a comment on her blog to tell my story when I was so very close to it myself. Thinking about that day and the hopelessness, despair and isolation I felt still has the power to make me cry. It also makes me so sad to know what I did next. I went to work and carried on with my day like nothing had happened. I didn't tell anyone. I didn't know how to talk about it, I didn't know how to reach out for help. I only knew how to survive and barely at that.
I started this blog to help myself. It has turned into one of my greatest tools in my journey. Something happened recently that made it hard for me to write because I don't want to write about what happened in a public forum. I really missed being able to write a post when something was churning around in my brain. I am thankful to be able to write again, about other things.
I know this blog helps me. I hope that it helps others as I truly believe talking about difficult things can only help. The truth is though, even if this blog doesn't help anyone else, it keeps me going.
And so, I talk. I talk about depression, suicide, medications, hard days and good days. It's important. Of this I am sure.
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